Every day, straight after school, my mates and I would run to the pub.
Not to get a drink, we were all underage and still in school uniform, but because that is where the nearest bus stop was.
If we were lucky, we would catch the first bus, especially if it was running a little late or being held up in traffic.
More often than not, we’d just miss it and have to wait for the next one, which was always packed with schoolboys.
Just outside the pub was a bench, which also served as a seat for those waiting for a bus. We would all rush to sit on the bench, unless there was a member of the public already there. To be honest, there was not usually anybody, although, occasionally, we would find an old man sitting there. Not just any old man, but one particular man. Had we thought about it, we would have noticed sooner that he was there only on a Thursday.
As a lad, I wasn’t always a good boy in school. I shall not tell you what I did, just to say that on that Thursday, I received a long detention after school. This meant that I was late getting to the bus stop. Being a Thursday, the old man was sitting on the bench, as usual. On this occasion, I did something unusual; I sat alongside him and introduced myself.
He told me his name was Arthur and that he was waiting.
He was not waiting for a bus, though, but for his wife.
“How long have you been waiting?” I asked.
“Several years.” He replied.
I looked at him quizzically. I was not sure if this had been a joke or if I had simply misheard.
“Well …” he said, in a way which let you know this was going to be a long explanation.
Well, this is his story.
One day, a Thursday, my wife and I came into town to do some shopping. I’ve always hated shopping and Mary, my wife, knew this. Usually, she would only ask me to come with her if we were buying something for the house, like a new carpet or paint, or if she had something heavy that she needed me to carry. I wasn’t sure why she had asked me to come with her this time.
When we got to the pub, she surprised me by saying that I should stay here, have a pint or two while she went shopping, and then she’d meet me back here on the bench at four O’clock.
Well, I wasn’t going to miss out on a chance like that, so I agreed. I went into the pub while she went shopping. But, I was having such a good time in the pub, drinking and chatting with other guys, that I failed to notice the time. When I did look at the clock above the bar, it was just gone half past four.
Quickly, I finished my drink and stepped outside. I looked at the bench and there was nobody there. ‘Phew’, I thought, it must be taking her longer to do the shopping. So I sat down and waited.
“Hey, isn’t that your bus?” Arthur said.
“Don’t worry, I’ll catch the next one. I want to hear more of your story” I replied.
Well …
I waited here on this bench until after five thirty. That’s when the shops started closing, but she still had not arrived back.
By now, of course, I was starting to worry; perhaps something had happened to her, an accident, maybe.
So I started to walk along the High Street to see if I could spot her.
There were certain shops that I knew she liked to go in, and I stopped outside each of those. I was trying to look inside but, of course, each one was closed.
I walked the length and breadth of the High Street and ended up back at this bench. But, I didn’t see her anywhere.
Then the thought occurred to me that perhaps she had arrived back at four o’clock and had got tired of waiting for me. Perhaps she had got the bus back home without me.
If that was true, then I knew I was in a lot of trouble and would have some explaining to do. So, there was nothing for it but to catch the next bus and try to think of a convincing story on the way home.
The trouble was, when I got home, she wasn’t there. Everything was still exactly the same as it had been when we left it.
By then, I was convinced something bad had happened, and I was worried sick.
Don’t ask me why, but the first thing I did was to get a bus back to the high street again and came to this bench.
I don’t know what I was thinking, but, of course, she still wasn’t there.
I popped into the pub and asked the barman if he had seen her come into the pub at any time, perhaps she had been looking for me.
But he said no.
Finally, I caught a late bus home.
The following Thursday, I was again late leaving school, not because of any detention; I simply wanted to wait around so that I could meet Arthur once more and ask for more of his story.
When I got to the bus stop, all the other schoolboys had already gone, but Arthur was still there sitting on the bench.
We exchanged greetings and I told him I was dying to hear the rest of his story.
Well … he continued.
I spent all that first evening and the night worrying about her. Then, first thing in the morning, I called the police; I don’t know why I had not done that sooner.
They asked me lots of questions; had we had an argument? Had she been acting strangely, did she have any illnesses, had I called her parents or friends? Looking back, they were all sensible questions, but it annoyed me because all I wanted was for them to start looking for her.
Do you know what they told me? They told me they couldn’t start looking for her until Monday. Three days later, for goodness’ sake,… she could have been dead by then!
They did have one good suggestion, though; ring the hospital. Which I hadn’t thought of doing.
So afterwards, I did ring the local hospital, But they told me that nobody with Mary’s name had been admitted.
I even rang the pub again, and I rang our bank. The pub hadn’t seen her, and the bank said no money had been taken out of our account by her.
The police did come round at some time that weekend. They wanted a better description and a recent photo of her. I guess they were trying to get everything ready for when they started looking for her. They may have been trying to reassure me but, in effect, it made me more anxious because it seemed to make it all the more real, that something bad had happened.
Each day that week and the week after, I rang the police station to see if they had found anything about her. Each day… nothing.
At one point, a reporter from the local paper came round. He wanted to write a story about her. But, his article finally appeared somewhere at the bottom of the page, somewhere inside the paper. Somewhere, nobody would have noticed it!
Then, eventually, and I don’t know why, it came round to Thursday, and, I decided to go visit this bench again. As I say, I don’t know why, I guess I just hoped she might be here.
It was a strange idea, but it was all I had at the time. So I came here just before four o’clock to wait for her.
The next Thursday, I did the same. And the Thursday after that, and the next one. Until it became almost a routine. Maybe, ‘ritual’ is a better word.
I come here every Thursday, just to remember her. Perhaps, there’s still a little hope that she might return.
For many weeks, I’d meet and talk with Arthur at the bus stop. I’d ask him if he had any news of his wife.
Each week, it was the same; nothing.
It was a pity I’d met Arthur during my last year at school. With the long summer holiday and then going in to work, I lost touch with him.
You remember, I told you that I wasn’t always a good boy at school?
Well, it wasn’t just as a schoolboy, as a youth and a young adult, I also wasn’t always good.
I shan’t reveal what I did wrong but, several years later, my punishment was to do ‘Community Service’.
As chance would have it, part of my community service was spent helping out at an old people’s home.
I had been there a couple of days before I saw someone who looked familiar. It was Arthur. This was where he was now living, and he was sitting alone in the lounge.
So, I went up and introduced myself to him. I was surprised that he seemed to recognise and recall me almost straight away.
“You’re that nice young man who listened to my story on the pub bench.” He said.
“That’s right,” I said, “Did you ever find out what happened to your wife?”
“You wouldn’t believe what happened.” He said.
“Tell me…”
“Well …”
One day, many years after Mary disappeared, there was a knock on my front door. Well, actually, he rang the doorbell, but you know what I mean.
He was a nice, well-dressed, young man in his twenties. I thought he was either a salesman or a Jehovah’s witness, or something like that.
But straightaway, he knew my name and asked if I’d been married to Mary.
I said ‘yes’, of course.
Then he said, and I’ll never forget this, he said he had some important news for me.
“Don’t tell me,” I said, “Jesus loves me.”
“Maybe he does,” he said, “no it’s nothing like that. I’m not here to convert you to any religion.”
It was then that he told me he was my son.
That made me very angry and a little frightened. Mary and I had tried to have children but, for some reason, we found we couldn’t.
Now this strange man was claiming to be my son.
He told me that this mother had told him that she didn’t think his father was his real father. His mother had been married to someone else, technically they were still married, but they had been unable to have children. His mother had started having an affair with another man, his father, and she found out she was pregnant. Naturally, she assumed that father was the man she had been having this affair with.
So she left her husband and moved in to live with her lover so that they could bring up their child together.
As her son grew up, his mother began to have doubts. In her son, she could see traits of her real husband and very little, if anything, of her new partner. But, by then, it was too late to do anything about it.
He, this man, went on to explain that his mother promised him on his 21st birthday, that he had the right to know who his real father was.
It turns out that they arranged, somehow, to have a DNA test. It turned out that the man was not related to the man he thought was his father.
I must admit, I found this all a bit confusing and troubling, so I asked the man what his mother’s name was. He said Mary and that he was called Chris.
It turned out that Mary was actually pregnant with my son when she disappeared.
As you can imagine, I had lots of questions I wanted to ask Arthur; like ‘did he and Mary ever get back together?’ ‘Does he still see his son?’ ‘How does he feel toward his wife and her new partner?’
But all my questions would have to wait because, by this time, my Community Service Supervisor had spotted me sitting and chatting with Arthur. He came in and moved me on. I was also barred from talking to Arthur, or any other resident of the home, for the rest of my time there.
As it turned out, it was some 3 months later that I was allowed to see Arthur again. I learned that he had still not seen Mary since her disappearance, but his son, Chris, did visit him once a month.
A few years ago, I attended Arthur’s funeral. It was there that I met Chris myself. It was Chris who first suggested that I should tell Arthur’s story.
That, I have just done.
